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What if They Say “YES?”
The fear lurking beneath rejection
My daydreams and night dreams are blurring into each other these days. In the morning I woke to wispy threads of emotion… I kept my eyes closed and reached for them, stretching myself, but they were just beyond my grasp. I can’t quite put words to the threads of the fabric, but the feeling was so warm and yummy… I was light and airy and connected to something right, doing something that filled me up. Joy was so present, I wanted to stay asleep because I felt as if I’d arrived somewhere I daydream of, a place where what I did every day drew together a complete me, a purposeful, fulfilled version of me that knew she was doing what she was always meant to do…
Next I’m daydreaming… I imagine the workshops I want to offer on cooking and eating a Whole Food Plant-Based Diet… of course, I’d have to start with why anyone would want to eat this way, but then I’d get to share the joys of discovering remarkable fruits and vegetables and grains… like Jackfruit from Indonesia and Lotus Root from China, Teff from Africa and Freekeh from the Middle East, pulses like Urad and Chana Daal from India… and then I’d get to teach people how to buy them and prepare them and cook them, how to season them and combine them and….
A loud voice boomed in my head. “God I’m sick of all this dreaming! Email that cooking school and tell them your…
