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Overthinking… Is it my Brain Trying to work out old trauma?
Dreams, Nightmares & What Comes Through
Day 18:July 26, 2021 — Note to self: Please remember to go with my gut!
Morning
I like my piece today, but too much thinking. I had dreams about sand drawings and couldn’t quite remember them. The images were elusive as I woke. In the studio, I was thinking too hard to try to recapture what was so organic and beautiful in the dream.
The resulting piece is pretty, but took too much mental energy. Just need to be faithful that the impulse from the dream will come back around when it’s ready.
Sometimes liminal thoughts and feelings take a while to burst into consciousness.
1971ish
Everything is dark — the sky, the earth — and army green. The world is collapsing around me, army tanks like clumps of rolled steel storming everywhere, taking over. I can only stand in the midst trembling in fear, small, helpless. Someone gives me a flower to make me feel better, but it’s just a gesture. Nothing changes. Armageddon.
That’s the nightmare I had regularly as a child.
