Love, love, love your writing and this piece!! So glad I found you. This resonates for me - it's like soulspeak...
I've spent the majority of my life exactly where you describe yourself - oh so tired of being strong, resilient, competent and dependable... Until I hit the wall in 2017 and all the parts and pieces of me said "enough" and simply went offline.
Five years later I am better, and have started a business to help nurture the heart of wellness in as many women as I can. We CANNOT be of service to the world unless we can service ourselves first. And as you point out, the world needs a BF makeover!!!
Here's a little excerpt from an article I wrote just over a year ago (link follows):
"If you would stand against [the world's litany of insurmountable problems], you must value yourself as an individual and ask yourself “What would it look like to honor my needs… to be well, to feel well, to do well?” I’m on a mission to create a tribe of women who want to be well and be whole so they can grow their energy, power, and compassion and invest it to change the world, make a difference, help those in need, and heal all of us… from the inside out."
You are a strong warrior BECAUSE you have chosen to recognize and accept that part of you needs to be carefree, even in a world that's about to tip over.
I agree: Since I got on the train to get to 100 followers 5 days ago, I have written more, shared more, read more, and felt more connected to a writing community than ever before.
Oh, almost forgot- link to the article I mentioned:
https://drmichellethall.medium.com/how-can-i-make-a-difference-in-the-world-31f1e8d671cf